My younger sister is the best.
Really.

We were talking about the world ending in 2012 after dinner and this is an exerpt.

Me: You know, since we have such short lives, why don't people just say what they mean?
Grace: Okay. I'll ask debbie if she's lesbian.

I treasure the moments that I'm along and reflecting because it brings out who I really am and my genuine feelings. I'm still trying to find the source of today's "I-really-want-to-be-alone" moment I'm having but I'm convinced everything will be fine.

It's been 3 days at Hougang Primary already and yes, it has definitely been an eye-opener. Coming from a convent, I did get a culture shock but I'm getting used to it slowly. Monday was probably one of the few times I felt a lack of confidence to speak to a group of people, maybe it made such a big difference because they were children, but at that moment, I kind of decided that teaching may not be that suited for me. One more thing keeping me from continuing with teaching - I seriously do not think I am role model material. HONESTLY. How can others look up to me if my own younger sister doesn't? (Or maybe she does, but she doesn't want to show it in fear that it'll cause the inflation of my ego.) It's not that I really want to be a teacher, it's more of an experiment, but I hate finding out that I'm not suitable and that I'm not up for it. Since there's still time to assess my suitability, it's MIND OVER MATTER now. (:

I got the call from SMU yesterday regarding my interview for Business School. It's an open debate styled interview so I think I'll enjoy it but it did get me worrying. I'm really bad at handling anxiety and it really eats me up but oh well, no can do.

I think I've spent close to 2 months slacking around and my conclusion is, it has definitely made me fatter. Anyhow, that's life. My internship at Hougang Primary starts in February and after listening to my supervisor talk, I realised that I would hardly teach on my own and most of the time would be spent observing or co-teaching.

BTT tomorrow, hopefully I pass, despite Audrey saying that the fail rate for first-timers is 51%.

I submitted my application for SMU yesterday; it's some early application so that I go for my interview before the A level results are out.

I'm doing nothing much with my life and obviously I haven't been using my brain either because I can't seem to elaborate on something for more than a sentence. Maybe I should engage in mahjog sessions; if it works with the elderly, it better work for me!

I just listened to almost all of Clay Aiken's songs from AI2 and he has such a smooth voice that I couldn't help smiling.
(:

My training starts tomorrow and I really really don't want to go. :/
AH SIGH.
But of course, I will go because its a good opportunity and it is so unlike me to pass up a good opportunity.

On a side note, I feel like getting a new blog. That's not really important though, considering I rarely update.

THINGS TO DO:
1. Finish up my resume
2. Study for BTT
3. Get a job for March onwards

It's not alot, but if I don't get started, I'll just be bumming around for the next six months and that's equivalent to becoming fat and stupid.
No offense to those who plan to bum around!

I realised that the last few days have been filled with lots of all-talk-no-action moments. I haven't exactly started planning what I'm going to do for the next SEVEN months of my life. Two days ago, I tried to sign up for one of the SPRING Singapore internships. There were altogether five steps. (Note: I sacrificed my daily dose of "TOGETHER" to fill in the form.) All was going well, until I reached step four which was INFROMATION OF FAMILY MEMBERS. Then I proceeded to click 'x'. Oh, the pains of being born into a big family.

I got my other two wisdom teeth out! When making the appointment, I just said that I wanted a check-up to know if I had to take them out. So at the clinic, she checked it and said, "Yeah, its impacted, it has to be taken out. Want to do it now?" SIGHH. In the words of Guan Ling, "You didn't get a chance to SLEEP with the fear!" But at least its out. (:

/edit later. LUNCH now.

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH THE A LEVELS.
Okay, I kid.

Well, at least I survived one week plus of it.

I AM GOING TO WATCH THE TELEVISION UNTIL I GO BLIND AFTER A LEVELS.
Not as though I'm not doing that now but it'll be without a guilty conscience.

SIGH.

PHYSICS 2
ECONOMICS
BREAK
CHEMISTRY 1
PHYSICS 3
BREAK
BREAK
BREAK
BREAK
PHYSICS 1

Surprisingly, its more effective if it comes from yourself.

Just last Sunday, I told my mother that I couldn't do it anymore, I couldn't force myself to study and I just have no more drive. It stresses me out that I see everyone around me studying so hard but I just can't.

It really doesn't feel like the last day of school. possibly because we are not done with the most-talked-about A levels. Anyway, something tells me that I'm really really miss all the times I spent in CJC. I'm really thankful for the many opportunities I have been given throughout my 2 years of education. They've helped me come out of my comfort zone and excel in the many different aspects of my life. So, thank you mummy for telling me to make CJC my first choice.

My class has played a large role in enriching my JC life and filling it with endless fun. Bel and Gen have been the most awesome classmates, able to tolerate my endless nonsense and all the times that I irritated them. Thanks for being my listening ear on my days of ranting and for helping me and supporting me when I had problems. I'm really really thankful. To the rest of my class, thanks for adding that extra spark to my days, for making me laugh so much, especially Glenn and Megan. Thanks for helping me out with the class funds and for making everything a team effort. I'll treasure the days we spent together.

Choir was probably what got me the most temperamental, stressed, emotional and exhausted but needless to say, the experience of working together with such an amazingly talented group of people was thoroughly enjoyable. Thank you JC2 choir members for co-operating with me and for dedicating to doing our very best for SYF. I don't think I'll ever forget the emotional rollercoasters we all had and the moment when all our hard work was paid off. To Guan, Tangster, Kat, thanks for just being there for me. For supporting me and comforting me when I was troubled, for listening to me and being a shoulder I could cry on. Thanks for not judging me for all the nonsense that I did and for the way I did things. I'm really glad we made it through two years. (: I'll really miss meeting up with you all every morning although sometimes we hardly talk due to sheer tiredness. You guys have made my JC life bearable when it was so tough and you all have always been a source of encouragement. I'll miss the nonsense and all the laughter we shared together. It's been simply awesome spending time with you all.

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I'm thinking of changing what I blog about. Somehow, blogging about what happens daily bores me.

It's been a pretty eventful first week back to school and I feel as though its been FOREVER since my prelims.
Results on MONDAY and mock exams are starting,
so its no more slacking and let's get geared up for the real thing!

ION ORCHARD. (MY FIRST VISIT)


ESCAPE THEME PARK.


B&J Party/GSS (no photos of the ice cream though.)


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I went for the 8th day of SVDP's novena and the homily was really really good. As in, I paid full attention without zoning out or stoning or sleeping. (Snaps for Mag. XX) It was how Singaporeans live life by the 5 Cs.

Criticise
Complain
Compare
Compete
Condemn

And then you really feel like you wish you could say that you don't live life by these five Cs, but OH WELL, I do. It's time for TRANSFORMATIONS! (after As lar.)

Anyway, listent to this song by Daughtry.
SUPER NICE.

Life After You
Daughtry

Today, I told myself that I really needed to start studying Physics, especially since I didn't touch physics at all during the one week break. So, on the bus home, I psyched myself into being disciplined and not turning on the television. Worked for a while. Actually, it's working really good, just that I'm using the computer right now. 

SIGH. Life can't go as you plan all the time. 

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If you haven't heard. my recent schedule has been arranged around television programmes.
It's really disgusting.
What makes it more disgusting is that I know of it and I haven't make any effort to change it.
So much for DISCIPLINE and determination.

Anyway, I got my NECESSITIES for major mugging today.
They consist of:
1. NUTRITEA - Barley
2. NUTRITEA - Water Chestnut & Sugarcane
3. Meiji White grape coated with chocolate